Riding the emotional roller-coaster

Sunday, February 23, 2014

So I wanted to share a little bit about the emotional roller coaster I’ve been on for the past three weeks. We were warned that studying abroad wouldn’t be rainbows and sunshine all the time, and I’m not naïve enough to think it would be but this adjustment is MUCH harder than I expected. I have had the biggest wave of emotions from happy tears to heaving sad tears to just plain overwhelmed tears…notice the commonality there: tears. I have cried more in the past three weeks than I think I have in the past three years at home. It seems that’s the only way my body can effectively process my emotions. It’s weird for me because I am usually a fairly level headed rational person but I seem to be feeling everything times ten. Simple things like sunshine or a good bottle of wine with friends make me feel overwhelmingly blessed and happy but then the tiniest thing like working up the courage to ask my Madame about my laundry makes me want to curl into the fetal position and cry…what is wrong with me?

I’m sharing all of this at the top of said roller-coaster after a wonderful weekend in Lyon with three of my girlfriends. The weather was like those ever so rare mid-west spring days when it is sunny with a slight breeze and you’re comfortable in a sweater. Right now I’m getting myself through the weeks by planning my weekends and that seems to help me forget how challenging the adjustment has been. My goal for the week is to get over my fear of sharing the kitchen with my Madame and make myself a real dinner…sounds so simple, but a task that is daunting for me.

We have another 4 hours on this bus home to Paris and I will be posting pictures from the weekend and working on another blog post tomorrow hopefully…more to come soon!